Well here we go!! Here's to a beautiful baby boy that will be in our arms tomorrow! TOMORROW IS THE DAY! Or let's just say it better be! Of course if he is a creature of his "parent's" habits he will be late :). Come rollin' in on Saturday or somethin' :). I might die... if y'all haven't heard from me by 9 on Friday just don't ask hahaha!
I am an emotional mess right now, anything can make me boo hoo like a baby! I had a wise mommy friend tell me to enjoy his movements today because I will miss them... That has had me teared up more times then not today.. It's true, that part of pregnancy will definitely be missed. He is very active right now too, he knows it's go time :). So smart he is :).... I don't think that we would have been waiting too much longer then tomorrow if we were not inducing as it seems that every evening brings about some new pains or struggles that seem from what I have heard and know for myself, to be progression to labor.
It sure is crazy when I think... uhhh tomorrow I am a mom. I'M SORRY WHAT DID I JUST TYPE! That is just crazy... I swear I get myself so worked up from thinking about the anxiety, fear, excitement that it makes me nauseous sometimes! I just hate the uncontrollable... I have really grown to KNOW that I have become quite the control freak. Oh well :)... someone has to control stuff right :).
That is really all that I have to talk about... tomorrow 7 am. I will most certainly post on here as soon as I can. Thanks for all the love, kindness, and support throughout this "ride"... XOXO!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
OOPS... doctor update/ OHHHHH YEAH, ANNIVERSARY!
NO CHANGE.. there.. the end... :)
I totally forgot to do a blog yesterday about my appt... It was a horrible Monday to say the least outside of hearing Brady's heartbeat which still thrills me to this day to hear :). My doctor's appt. brought the news of ohhhh NOTHING :), besides a locked in time of 7 am at St. David's Round Rock Medical Center. I still can't believe that in 3 days we will be sitting in a bed having all kinds of wires and machines going bringing in this sweet baby boy into the world.. Still amazing to me.. I am starting to be not as scared, from words of my ever so wise mommy friends and then just the fact of sorry, no take backs... baby boy is a comin' and uhhh you best push hahaha... But I am still 1.5 cm. and 70% effaced although sheesh i feel horrible rolling over in bed and getting up the one million times to use the facilities... So his big ol head is definitely down there haha :).
So I am soooo stinking excited about his going home outfit and game day outfit that a wonderful lady made for me off of Etsy! I totally recommend her as she has been so sweet and personable and even put a sweet note on the outfit which was wrapped so precious too.. She does any of the schools and if you look at her stuff on Etsy, she just comes up with ideas for onesies that are so cute! Anyways, here is a shout out to her and a pic of his hospital onesie for pics and well just to look FLIPPIN' CUTE, and then of course game day, which please lord can we please score more then just barely double digits, thank you, love you, SUPER MEAN IT!
Here is her link to the outfit and then her other stuff...
http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?ref=vt_related_1&listing_id=34217426
Here is a picture... soooo stinking cute. I can already see his little buddah belly in it :). His is of course a long sleeve since it will be chilly!
I also have news of a little niece that TRIED to poke her little head into this world last night!! I think that in her sweet little baby mind that she is like UHHH I DON'T THINK SO BRADY, YOU AREN'T GOING TO BE IN THIS WORLD BEFORE ME, HAVING ALL THE FUN HAHAHA! It will be very cute having them together! I can't wait for all the pink and blue to intermingle :)... Brady playin' with Barbies... Payton playin' with big wheels lol... it will be fun!
In the midst of all of the baby excitement, Brad and I's 2 year anniversary is today :). I really think it seems like we have been married so much longer :). It's been a great 2 years, so much learned about each other and about life and our ways of how we want to live...and ways that are yeah, not so liveable :). I am so excited to have our little family being established and know that the last 2 years are going to be nothing compared to the next 2 and on :). Although I don't feel that a life can be perfect, if it can then please sign my autograph book lol... I feel that you can get off the right path, and that you can be on the on the right path as well. I feel right now that Brad and I have rebounded from so many things to learn the path we are meant to be on that this is the perfect time for our little guy to join us and for us to keep building the life that makes us happy. LOVE YOU BOO! Happy Anniversary!!
Besides that, I better get truckin'... XOXO, until next time...
I totally forgot to do a blog yesterday about my appt... It was a horrible Monday to say the least outside of hearing Brady's heartbeat which still thrills me to this day to hear :). My doctor's appt. brought the news of ohhhh NOTHING :), besides a locked in time of 7 am at St. David's Round Rock Medical Center. I still can't believe that in 3 days we will be sitting in a bed having all kinds of wires and machines going bringing in this sweet baby boy into the world.. Still amazing to me.. I am starting to be not as scared, from words of my ever so wise mommy friends and then just the fact of sorry, no take backs... baby boy is a comin' and uhhh you best push hahaha... But I am still 1.5 cm. and 70% effaced although sheesh i feel horrible rolling over in bed and getting up the one million times to use the facilities... So his big ol head is definitely down there haha :).
So I am soooo stinking excited about his going home outfit and game day outfit that a wonderful lady made for me off of Etsy! I totally recommend her as she has been so sweet and personable and even put a sweet note on the outfit which was wrapped so precious too.. She does any of the schools and if you look at her stuff on Etsy, she just comes up with ideas for onesies that are so cute! Anyways, here is a shout out to her and a pic of his hospital onesie for pics and well just to look FLIPPIN' CUTE, and then of course game day, which please lord can we please score more then just barely double digits, thank you, love you, SUPER MEAN IT!
Here is her link to the outfit and then her other stuff...
http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?ref=vt_related_1&listing_id=34217426
Here is a picture... soooo stinking cute. I can already see his little buddah belly in it :). His is of course a long sleeve since it will be chilly!
I also have news of a little niece that TRIED to poke her little head into this world last night!! I think that in her sweet little baby mind that she is like UHHH I DON'T THINK SO BRADY, YOU AREN'T GOING TO BE IN THIS WORLD BEFORE ME, HAVING ALL THE FUN HAHAHA! It will be very cute having them together! I can't wait for all the pink and blue to intermingle :)... Brady playin' with Barbies... Payton playin' with big wheels lol... it will be fun!
In the midst of all of the baby excitement, Brad and I's 2 year anniversary is today :). I really think it seems like we have been married so much longer :). It's been a great 2 years, so much learned about each other and about life and our ways of how we want to live...and ways that are yeah, not so liveable :). I am so excited to have our little family being established and know that the last 2 years are going to be nothing compared to the next 2 and on :). Although I don't feel that a life can be perfect, if it can then please sign my autograph book lol... I feel that you can get off the right path, and that you can be on the on the right path as well. I feel right now that Brad and I have rebounded from so many things to learn the path we are meant to be on that this is the perfect time for our little guy to join us and for us to keep building the life that makes us happy. LOVE YOU BOO! Happy Anniversary!!
Besides that, I better get truckin'... XOXO, until next time...
Friday, November 13, 2009
7 WONDERS OF MY WORLD...
So as I sit at work trying to make sure that everything is in line for my leaving work for 8 weeks (I mean how do you even prepare for that, there is no way they can do without me, RIGHT??? hahaha, so we wish huh?), I am very bluntly realizing that HOPEFULLY at this time next week I will be holding my fat little baby boy :). This is really something that is weird to think about honestly.. As I have said before there are just so many emotions it is hard to put everything in order in my head! I wonder many things... but I am going to try to compile them into 7 things..
1. I wonder if the stretch mark fairy will find me... Knock on wood, and it better not happen IN THE LAST WEEK, I have not had one stretch mark pop up... What if I have him and shrink like a balloon and all these "marks" pop up. I will die if I look like Freddie came and got me with his dagger claws! (By the way this is just me being hard on myself, by no means am I throwing judgement on anyone else :) that might be cussing me reading this ). I have located the nearest place to tan to the house which I will be there the day after we are home as I have been pastey Mel for 9 months longer then I cared to. I will be the darkest white girl IN THE WINTER that you have ever seen hahaha! As well as I found the shortest drive to Gold's which I am not sure if I like that I am SURROUNDED BY THEM... It really puts a damper on the excuses that I always have more then enough of in my head on not to go :).
2. I wonder how it will be again having to worry about if I have a pooch or if I need to suck in hahaha... It has been so nice for the last nine months lettin' it ALLLLLL hang out and not having one ounce of care about the gut that was molded by anything you wanted to eat being in there. I do have to say that I will miss that ALOT about pregnancy, I will not blog about missing pregnancy yet though because I can't see the list of things being long hahaha! It has been a great experience but I will pass my great experience torch to the next friend that wants it. I hope they have one as mine went, it was easy and pleasant (after the nausea) to go through.. something I will always have an appreciation for.
3. I wonder how many things I think I know about a baby that I really have no clue about. I was talking to my friend Jen last night and she reminded me as we were talking about her experiences with her boys about the realization that I had a few months back. Example of what I am talking about as far as having no clue... I consider myself pretty knowledgeable on knowing about babies, common sense type deals from being around my beautiful friends that are mommas and their beautiful kiddos. Or should I say that I thought I was knowlegdgeable until I realized, uhhhhhh HAVE I EVER GIVEN A TINY BABY A BATH? To me it is a very important part of having a child, am I wrong? hahaha.... Then that is when it hit me, we are going to have a fabulous time with me not being as smart as I think I am with babies, and Brad following me hahaha! I guess I am only really good at playing and loving on the babies which isn't bad, but man I think we are going to have a huge heart attack when we get home on our own haha!
4. I wonder if I will be a "cool parent"... I think having a boy- he will have me wrapped around his little finger, same way as a girl would her daddy. This scares me.. most of you know that I have a basset hound that has over the past 6 years gotten me as tightly wrapped around his "paw" it's ridiculous. I know that I sound dumb, but I base alot of having a kiddo around me having him... I love him more then anything, it scares me sometimes how much of a child he is to me and how much I love him as it scares me for the heartache that that can bring. The few times that he has gotten in trouble which I am sure Brad would give me the crooked eyebrow about my definition of "trouble", it will devestate me all day that I yelled at him and wonder if I hurt his feelings. I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW... its ridiculous but it is true... **RANDOM MOMENT STRAIGHT AHEAD** There was one time when he was I think one and he was enjoying his stay outside or so I thought while I was at a volleyball tournament until I found out that as I was in Austin, it was pouring in Pflugerville... I had no clue... to this day, typing this, I get tears in my eyes and feel so bad that he was in the rain. See what I am saying... it's bad, so I am so afraid that I will be a pushover when I have a kiddo... just by how much of a pushover I am with my dog :).
5. I wonder if I will really be able to physically put myself through the demand that I "think" I will be able to. If my make-believe world comes true, I will be in the gym as soon as the "south pole" allows.. or should I say I will be working out. I have a NEW AND IMPROVED VERSION OF.... DRUM ROLL.... BUNS OF STEEL.. yeah you heard me right.. you 'member don't cha.. the buns of steel, legs of steel, abs of steel, arms of steel.. Yeah I have them in VHS but can't seem to find my VCR hahaha! So yeah I have that baby on DVD in the plastic, as it was of course purchased for me to use throughout the pregnancy so that I wouldn't have cheese grater butt but as oh my gosh do I have...... but yeah that went out the window. I think I will be ok sleep deprivation wise because of the days of Dicks vs. Siemens and only getting 2 hours of sleep Wed.-Sat. every week, and I lived... barely, but with coffee I can do anything! haha! By the way, I am so stinking excited to tan and drink as much coffee as I want (ok I have to moderate with breast feeding in the beginning)! Doesn't that just sound awful though.. bring back the wrinkly skin and yellow teeth, that is what I am going to do.. BROWN IS BEAUTIFUL.. Dear Teeth and skin, BREAK TIME IS OVA (OVER)!! hahaha!
6. I wonder if I will really breastfeed as I "want to".... I just can't get over to one side or the other on the teeter totter I am on with that business. I will keep this clean as I know my pops reads this ;) but I really just don't like the idea of something drinking from me like a goat... if he starts nudging up on me like a calf that is going to make me call it quits hahaha! I know that that sounds AWFUL... and so selfish but man I would like to say that a woman goes through about the most 9 NOT SELFISH MONTHS of her life while pregnant... that takes me to think come on, you have 6 more weeks (I am only planning to do it for 6 weeks and then have the remaining 2 weeks of the 8 weeks total I am off for work drying up and dealing with the leakage haha) and it is so beneficial for him. It really does scare me to death bringing his precious chunky butt into the world during such a sick season.. especially this season.. 22 million with the swine flu, THAT IS CRAZY! With all that I am wondering about, I do not want to have to wonder if he wouldn't have caught a cold if I would have given him extra momma nutrients out of the milk jugs.... I don't even think Brad listens when I talk about this anymore because my mind changes every other day :).
More for jokes-
7. I wonder if I will still be attractive to the gentlemen that whistled at me driving by today. GOD BLESS EM, but ARE YOU SERIOUS...glad to know that from the CHEST UP that they can see, I am candy to them.. why don't I step out of the truck, and we can have a conversation??? I wish soooo bad that I had the guts to do that.. CAN YOU IMAGINE THEIR FACES! OHHHHHHH Hi sir, would you like to be my baby daddy?? OH MAN THAT WOULD BE PRICELESS. It just cracked me up, I seriously laughed... I was like yea, if only you knew what was below the window of my truck ;). These overgrown "feeders" come with a price, the price of a hospital bill after I have this baby lol!
Anyways, I have many wonders, but I am sure that this blog is in no way going to help my progression of working hard :). I hope everyone has a beautiful weekend! I have a doctor's appt. on Monday so that is where I should have all the final plans and will pass those on. SEE YOU SOON!
Thanks!
OK so my wonders have gotten a little long hahaa... but you see how random my mind is and how
1. I wonder if the stretch mark fairy will find me... Knock on wood, and it better not happen IN THE LAST WEEK, I have not had one stretch mark pop up... What if I have him and shrink like a balloon and all these "marks" pop up. I will die if I look like Freddie came and got me with his dagger claws! (By the way this is just me being hard on myself, by no means am I throwing judgement on anyone else :) that might be cussing me reading this ). I have located the nearest place to tan to the house which I will be there the day after we are home as I have been pastey Mel for 9 months longer then I cared to. I will be the darkest white girl IN THE WINTER that you have ever seen hahaha! As well as I found the shortest drive to Gold's which I am not sure if I like that I am SURROUNDED BY THEM... It really puts a damper on the excuses that I always have more then enough of in my head on not to go :).
2. I wonder how it will be again having to worry about if I have a pooch or if I need to suck in hahaha... It has been so nice for the last nine months lettin' it ALLLLLL hang out and not having one ounce of care about the gut that was molded by anything you wanted to eat being in there. I do have to say that I will miss that ALOT about pregnancy, I will not blog about missing pregnancy yet though because I can't see the list of things being long hahaha! It has been a great experience but I will pass my great experience torch to the next friend that wants it. I hope they have one as mine went, it was easy and pleasant (after the nausea) to go through.. something I will always have an appreciation for.
3. I wonder how many things I think I know about a baby that I really have no clue about. I was talking to my friend Jen last night and she reminded me as we were talking about her experiences with her boys about the realization that I had a few months back. Example of what I am talking about as far as having no clue... I consider myself pretty knowledgeable on knowing about babies, common sense type deals from being around my beautiful friends that are mommas and their beautiful kiddos. Or should I say that I thought I was knowlegdgeable until I realized, uhhhhhh HAVE I EVER GIVEN A TINY BABY A BATH? To me it is a very important part of having a child, am I wrong? hahaha.... Then that is when it hit me, we are going to have a fabulous time with me not being as smart as I think I am with babies, and Brad following me hahaha! I guess I am only really good at playing and loving on the babies which isn't bad, but man I think we are going to have a huge heart attack when we get home on our own haha!
4. I wonder if I will be a "cool parent"... I think having a boy- he will have me wrapped around his little finger, same way as a girl would her daddy. This scares me.. most of you know that I have a basset hound that has over the past 6 years gotten me as tightly wrapped around his "paw" it's ridiculous. I know that I sound dumb, but I base alot of having a kiddo around me having him... I love him more then anything, it scares me sometimes how much of a child he is to me and how much I love him as it scares me for the heartache that that can bring. The few times that he has gotten in trouble which I am sure Brad would give me the crooked eyebrow about my definition of "trouble", it will devestate me all day that I yelled at him and wonder if I hurt his feelings. I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW... its ridiculous but it is true... **RANDOM MOMENT STRAIGHT AHEAD** There was one time when he was I think one and he was enjoying his stay outside or so I thought while I was at a volleyball tournament until I found out that as I was in Austin, it was pouring in Pflugerville... I had no clue... to this day, typing this, I get tears in my eyes and feel so bad that he was in the rain. See what I am saying... it's bad, so I am so afraid that I will be a pushover when I have a kiddo... just by how much of a pushover I am with my dog :).
5. I wonder if I will really be able to physically put myself through the demand that I "think" I will be able to. If my make-believe world comes true, I will be in the gym as soon as the "south pole" allows.. or should I say I will be working out. I have a NEW AND IMPROVED VERSION OF.... DRUM ROLL.... BUNS OF STEEL.. yeah you heard me right.. you 'member don't cha.. the buns of steel, legs of steel, abs of steel, arms of steel.. Yeah I have them in VHS but can't seem to find my VCR hahaha! So yeah I have that baby on DVD in the plastic, as it was of course purchased for me to use throughout the pregnancy so that I wouldn't have cheese grater butt but as oh my gosh do I have...... but yeah that went out the window. I think I will be ok sleep deprivation wise because of the days of Dicks vs. Siemens and only getting 2 hours of sleep Wed.-Sat. every week, and I lived... barely, but with coffee I can do anything! haha! By the way, I am so stinking excited to tan and drink as much coffee as I want (ok I have to moderate with breast feeding in the beginning)! Doesn't that just sound awful though.. bring back the wrinkly skin and yellow teeth, that is what I am going to do.. BROWN IS BEAUTIFUL.. Dear Teeth and skin, BREAK TIME IS OVA (OVER)!! hahaha!
6. I wonder if I will really breastfeed as I "want to".... I just can't get over to one side or the other on the teeter totter I am on with that business. I will keep this clean as I know my pops reads this ;) but I really just don't like the idea of something drinking from me like a goat... if he starts nudging up on me like a calf that is going to make me call it quits hahaha! I know that that sounds AWFUL... and so selfish but man I would like to say that a woman goes through about the most 9 NOT SELFISH MONTHS of her life while pregnant... that takes me to think come on, you have 6 more weeks (I am only planning to do it for 6 weeks and then have the remaining 2 weeks of the 8 weeks total I am off for work drying up and dealing with the leakage haha) and it is so beneficial for him. It really does scare me to death bringing his precious chunky butt into the world during such a sick season.. especially this season.. 22 million with the swine flu, THAT IS CRAZY! With all that I am wondering about, I do not want to have to wonder if he wouldn't have caught a cold if I would have given him extra momma nutrients out of the milk jugs.... I don't even think Brad listens when I talk about this anymore because my mind changes every other day :).
More for jokes-
7. I wonder if I will still be attractive to the gentlemen that whistled at me driving by today. GOD BLESS EM, but ARE YOU SERIOUS...glad to know that from the CHEST UP that they can see, I am candy to them.. why don't I step out of the truck, and we can have a conversation??? I wish soooo bad that I had the guts to do that.. CAN YOU IMAGINE THEIR FACES! OHHHHHHH Hi sir, would you like to be my baby daddy?? OH MAN THAT WOULD BE PRICELESS. It just cracked me up, I seriously laughed... I was like yea, if only you knew what was below the window of my truck ;). These overgrown "feeders" come with a price, the price of a hospital bill after I have this baby lol!
Anyways, I have many wonders, but I am sure that this blog is in no way going to help my progression of working hard :). I hope everyone has a beautiful weekend! I have a doctor's appt. on Monday so that is where I should have all the final plans and will pass those on. SEE YOU SOON!
Thanks!
OK so my wonders have gotten a little long hahaa... but you see how random my mind is and how
Monday, November 9, 2009
YOU MEAN THERE REALLY IS A BABY IN THERE???
I am not quite sure if maybe I just thought that Brady's movements were bad gas bubbles, or if the actual images were the cute little being that would live in my gut o love til the end of time??? Maybe I thought the furniture in his room was there for my exercise purposes since I am never satisfied with how it is set up and move it constantly :). Maybe the clothes were there for me just to wash, hang, move around?? Not too sure what I have been thinking for the last pile of months.
Well today real life came and smacked me in the face as I was told LET'S SET A DATE! You know it's amazing how that statement in so many manners of life brings such wonderful things when scheduled??? I have always looked at it in an engagement light, and not so much as a LET'S MAKE YOU A PARENT, LET'S SET A DATE light :). I would like to say that the emotions for me are much more FRIGHTENED with the thought of a child looking to you for the rest of your life for inspiration, guidance, love... Never have I thought that I would be lacking in any of the parenting fields, or else I mean let's face it, there would not have been any attempts at being a parent. Right? But man, this is REEEEAAALLLLL! And what a realization it is!! There is soooo much happiness and excitement running through me as well, don't let me mis-guide you with my feelings! He has been kickin' up a storm too since the appt., so I think someone is as excited as we are! :).
ONTO THE NEWS....
Next Friday, November 20th, Mr. Brady James will be pokin' his head into the world and makin' us proud parents. This is assuming that he doesn't put me through a horrible 48 hour long labor or something :) and come on Saturday. I am not sure what time yet, I should find that out next Monday...We will be at St.David's Round Rock Med. Center (the old Round Rock Hospital). Please keep us in your prayers.... I am actually starting to get really scared... I have never had anything more then a couple of stitches in the hospital so this whole having a baby thing and the PAIN that might come with it if they decide to irritate me and not give me an epidural when I feel I need it :), that is what scares me. The pain.... mmmm mmmm mmmm... I just don't even want to talk about it :).
Right now I am 1.5 cm. dilated and have 70% efacement... so we still have a bit to go but we will see if he decides to wait until Nov. 20th... I told Brad that with our luck we will get a Friday the 13th baby hahaha... We have our hospital tour and "how to have a baby" class this Saturday, so hopefully we will make it! :)
Well I don't even want to start trying to prepare for being out the next 8 weeks but it must be done :). I will keep updating as the updates roll in!! XOXO!
Well today real life came and smacked me in the face as I was told LET'S SET A DATE! You know it's amazing how that statement in so many manners of life brings such wonderful things when scheduled??? I have always looked at it in an engagement light, and not so much as a LET'S MAKE YOU A PARENT, LET'S SET A DATE light :). I would like to say that the emotions for me are much more FRIGHTENED with the thought of a child looking to you for the rest of your life for inspiration, guidance, love... Never have I thought that I would be lacking in any of the parenting fields, or else I mean let's face it, there would not have been any attempts at being a parent. Right? But man, this is REEEEAAALLLLL! And what a realization it is!! There is soooo much happiness and excitement running through me as well, don't let me mis-guide you with my feelings! He has been kickin' up a storm too since the appt., so I think someone is as excited as we are! :).
ONTO THE NEWS....
Next Friday, November 20th, Mr. Brady James will be pokin' his head into the world and makin' us proud parents. This is assuming that he doesn't put me through a horrible 48 hour long labor or something :) and come on Saturday. I am not sure what time yet, I should find that out next Monday...We will be at St.David's Round Rock Med. Center (the old Round Rock Hospital). Please keep us in your prayers.... I am actually starting to get really scared... I have never had anything more then a couple of stitches in the hospital so this whole having a baby thing and the PAIN that might come with it if they decide to irritate me and not give me an epidural when I feel I need it :), that is what scares me. The pain.... mmmm mmmm mmmm... I just don't even want to talk about it :).
Right now I am 1.5 cm. dilated and have 70% efacement... so we still have a bit to go but we will see if he decides to wait until Nov. 20th... I told Brad that with our luck we will get a Friday the 13th baby hahaha... We have our hospital tour and "how to have a baby" class this Saturday, so hopefully we will make it! :)
Well I don't even want to start trying to prepare for being out the next 8 weeks but it must be done :). I will keep updating as the updates roll in!! XOXO!
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